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I’m Kevin, 18 y/o. Filipino. My definition of cool is something cooler than menthol.

Something political

I am not that political, but the University has taught me not to be apathetic, especially in campus issues. I don’t post anything political in this blog, nor do I write anything political, so in this post I humbly ask your patience if ever my political views are incoherent or incorrect.

A few weeks ago rumors have started to swarm the campus that by next semester, the large class policy will be implemented on all RGEP courses (History, Psychology, Philosophy, College Writing, College English, Speech Communication, among other subjects related to the Humanities and the Social Sciences). If my facts serve me right, the policy states that every class must have at least 160 students all flocked in a single class. Imagine a school of sardines all packed in a single can.

Taking Math11

I took Math11 (College Algebra) when I was a freshman, and though I very much welcome my weakness in Mathematics, I have to admit that its being a large class also was a factor with my performance. The usual joke back then is when my classmates would ask my class standing, I tell them nakaupo na nga ang class standing ko eh, which is way below the passing grade.

Math11 is a three-unit course: a one-hour lecture twice a week and a one-hour recitation class once a week. One of my biggest problems is my lecture class (and, let my problems in that semester be in a pie chart, three-fourths of it I shall label Math11), especially my professor, since he skims his Powerpoint slides and assume that every goddamn student in the lecture hall knows what he’s talking about. He used to say, “oh, you guys know this way back in High School” as if everyone of us came straight from a Science High School. We used to discuss two to three topics in forty-five minutes; when we’re lucky he would solve two hardcore problems on the whiteboard–students at the farthest corners of the classroom couldn’t see his solutions.

So every time I go to that lecture hall, when I was a freshman, I know I’m failing. I’m still listening, still writing notes as prolific as with my other subjects, but I think no matter how thick your notes are in Math, it’s useless if you don’t understand the basics. I drag my feet to that subject (sometimes I skip the class, especially after knowing my class standing). Every time I receive my quizzes, it’s a zero. I don’t even understand factoring, dammit.

I asked help from my blockmate who’s performing very well in the subject, but she’s not that much of an effective tutor, though I appreciated her effort. She says “factor this then solve this” like it’s the most natural thing to do. I texted another tutor, a Civil Engineering freshman, but it turns out that he’s quite of a nutcrack (no offense to him, but we argued about the simplest things in life–heck, we didn’t even meet once).

In the recitation class my professor has this penchant for filling the blackboard with solutions. We spend two yellow pads for forty-five minutes, all of those are solutions, solutions, solutions. In the last few months my blockmate and I just stare at the blank yellow pad paper; you’re supposed to know what you did in the lecture class, because in the recitation class we only do exercises.

It’s hopeless, I used to say with a sigh. It’s a painful thing to know that my parents would know about my 5.0 at my first semester in UP (though again, my parents understand–especially my Dad; he got a 3.0 in his Math11 in Diliman).

In a large lecture class, I couldn’t ask questions. When my lecture professor would ask us if we have any questions, I’m sometimes tempted to raise my hand, but the mere imagination of all those 160 students looking at me and asking for a handicapped explanation is very embarrassing.

Half of the class failed the class (as what I’ve heard), including me. My professor’s name became known out of that incident; his name is just so notorious when someone asks me about my professor in Math11 they’d say, kaya naman pala.

I took Math11 again after three semesters out of fear of going back to the perimeters of Math building (until now I hate going there). I passed it because the finals exam (of course I wasn’t exempted) was almost exactly the same with the Pre-Finals. I got a grade of 3.0.

What I think

Large classes can be a very practical way of cost-cutting, but the fact that ever since our batch came it had a 300% increase, why cost-cut? Is the Tuition and Other Fee Increase not enough to cater both quality education and buying new facilities, renovating buildings?

I am after the implementation of large classes in Humanities and Social Science subjects, considering the nature of these subjects, which needs a student-professor interaction, and not just mere spoonfeeding of lessons and handouts. Science and Math subjects are a different case, I think (though there should be a small class for mathematically-challenged, like a special class or something; just kidding). Imagine Speech Communication in a large-class setting; how could a student, god bless him, deliver a speech in front of 160 students when he couldn’t even deliver it with 30 students? (Though rumors say that there will be recitation classes, the same process with Math and Science subjects.) Same goes with all the other subjects.

Also, the junior faculty of both Department of Humanities and Department of Social Sciences will be wiped-out since, to put it simply, only the senior faculty will remain to teach the large classes. It’s probably out of sympathy that I detest this part since my Psychology professor has been having qualms about it for the past few weeks. Sadly, I have to say she’s one of my most effective and competent professors ever (the entire class would have to agree with that, I’m betting my laptop about this).

When I was a freshman I watched Isko’t Iska, a play-slash-musical which demonstrates what it’s like in the university, like a play to give way and welcome the new batch. One of their songs has the lyrics “conducive to learning, U P L B.” For the next set of freshmen, if ever the large class policy will be implemented, I don’t think the lyrics would still fit in their condition.

I’m very much disappointed that some of my classmates, especially my Communication Arts batchmates, are not that sympathetic with these affairs (though I know they do have their personal reasons). They refuse to go to the rallies and fight for the remaining threads of quality education in the University. Think of the next batches; the tuition fee increase happened four years ago, yes, but we should not let this happen.

LARGE CLASS POLICY, IBASURA!

Lapat

Nasa isipan ko ngayon kung gaano ako kababaw pagdating sa pagbibigay ng kritisismo (in literary terms naman ito, hindi basta-bastang kritisismo). Na-reject kasi ang topic kong Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows in a Marxist perspective, at naisip ko na baka bobo lang talaga ako. Hindi lang pala basta-bastang kabit dito-kabit doon ang mekanismo ng pagbibigay ng kritisismo. Kailangan daw malalim. Kailangan hindi kababawan, hindi porket anti-Ministry na si Harry Potter ay Marxist na ito, na anti-status quo siya, na may mga kudetang naganap sa libro. Kabobohan lahat ng naisip ko.

Pukingina lang talaga! Bobo ako! Wala, wala talaga. Sa buong klase namin ay ako lang ata ang hindi pinayagan (bagamat inalok ako ng aking propesor na palitan ang framework ko mula sa Marxist at gawing Feminist) sa aking naisip na gawing pagsusuri. Naisip ko tuloy na bobo ako, na kahit na ako na lang ata ang nagtitiyagang magbasa ng mga handouts tungkol sa hegemony ni Gramsci at kung anu-ano pang pag-aaral nila Althusser, Levi-Strauss at Barthes, ay hindi ko naman nailalapat ng mahusay ang mga ito sa pagbibigay ng kritisismo.

Pang-creative na lang talaga ako. Naisip ko pa dati na maganda sana ang Comparative Literature bilang pangalawang kurso! Kapal rin ng mukha ko.

Naisip ko lang magtagalog muna. Ngayon lang.

Ang dense ng mga naiisip kong topic sa ENG103 (Critical Writing). Jusko. Hindi ko talaga kinakaya. Naguguluhan ako. Magki-criticize ba ako ng tatlong istorya ni Murakami at hahanapin ang “binding element” nila gamit ang postmodernism o piliin ko na lang ang After Dark na nobela rin ng naturang manunulat at i-criticize gamit pa rin ang postmodernism at post-colonialism?

Leche.

For the sake of

Somebody changed my Yahoo! Mail name to Kassandra.

Fuck that guy.

Anyway, I was paying my dinner with a friend when we happened to pore over Yes! Magazines (beside a short story collection or folio of my organization entitled Something’s Eye View, which is out of topic) at the cashier counter. This week/month’s cover is Dingdong Dantes and Marian Rivera. At the rightmost part of the magazine, I quote, if my memory serves me right, an interview with Dingdong and Marian (probably about their relationship, though I don’t really give a damn about them):

“A queen will always be a queen, and she will be my queen.” – Dingdong Dantes

I almost did a cartwheel.

Do

Much of my time I’ve been spending on taking pictures, editing my short stories (as a requirement of my adviser-to-be; hopefully he would accept me), and listen to music that I couldn’t watch movies anymore, or read the Jonathan Safran Foer book I bought for Christmas.

To even shake things up, I told myself to read a thick book about critical frameworks, from Marxism (which is beyond mental masturbation, which is why I like it the most… so far) to Postmodernism. This is for me to know the critical side of writing. The obsessive-compulsive in me wants to patch things up, for I usually spend an hour refreshing my Tumblr dashboard or exploring Last.fm artists.

Organizing things is not my forte, but I shall try to do things in this boring routine:

  1. Read a book for two hours every day. If my roommates start talking about their latest adventures in their PSPs, I shall find a sweet refuge away from them.
  2. Always bring the camera; the day-to-day shenanigans and food porn usually call for it.
  3. As much as possible I shall not forget snippets, dreams, musings, and the whatnot. I shall write on my Moleskine if the time, place and privacy would let me.
  4. Read a concept and try to master them every day. Say, Gramsci’s Cultural Hegemony or Levi-Strauss’s study about mythology under the Structuralism theory. This shall take at least thirty minutes. Remember to take small steps at a time, and consult to a nearby professor if ever I could notice myself reading the same line for three minutes.
  5. I shall try listen to a new band/artist every week. This week: Jens Lenkman.
  6. Watch a movie as much as possible every Sunday. I shall call it the Sunday Show, out of lame reasons. (This week I’ll watch this Korean intelligent horror film, The Uninvited.)
  7. Blog at least twice a week.
  8. Drink beer at least twice a month (with the exception of the upcoming Feb Fair and birthday celebrations).
  9. Do not be guilty on spending moolah on food. Food is where I am happy, and though what I jogged last semester are gradually coming back in the form of a big, big belly, at least I won’t die craving for waffles.
  10. 21/365: Good Morning!

This list can be a catalyst for change or a proof for my unwavering procrastination.

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  • We.re All Broken – The Fraud

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